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6/19/25
This was my visit to the park like 2 months ago. Writing it down now cause forgot to write it before 😭 🙏 All events here are true. Gonna write it in movie script style bc that's easier for now Some names will be changed either cuz idk how to spell their names or to protect privacy Also ill js cut to the drama for this version, might make another version later where I write everything in detail. Gonna add emojis just to signify their tone. TW For some racism and homophobia CONTEXT: Me, Malaysia, (NOT MALAYSIA FROM OUR CLASS OK 💔) Serenity, and Niora met at the local park. Malaysia is 13, black, around same height as Ash; Niora (10-11) is her sister. Miracle is their 3 year old lil sis. And they also brought a whole other bunch of their family to the park but you'll learn about them later. Serenity is 11-12. Has a brother as well but again you'll learn about him later. We were just chillin for a bit and decided to go on the 2-story carousel. Then i turn around and see this mf making sus faces at me from the swing. He's like 5'7? 5'6? Looks a lot like Serenity. But anyway he catches the attention of everyone else too bc Niora: Thats your brother-- Serenity: No no there's no way I'm related to that thing-- [laughter] *We go over to the swing. I watch everyone bicker for a bit. It's obvious they know each other but the guy is annoying all the time.* Me: (low tone:) Who's that...? Niora: That's Dominic, Serenity's brother. He's 12. Serenity: (genuinely sort of annoyed) DOMIIIIIIINIC. Malaysia: What are you doing here bro 😭 *Malaysia and Niora's 6 y/o brother [not Miracle] comes over and snatches the scooter right off of the swing support beams* Dominic [stands up instantly and tries to grab him] Oh you little ni--{n word} *The kid laughs and escapes with the scooter in tow* [more arguing with Dominic] *I take the only other empty swing spot.* *Dominic comes over to me, ignoring every statement hurled at him.* Dominic: Hey ching chong give me the swing 💀 Me: Aint no way...brotha what [loud protesting] {Malaysia/Serenity? Couldn't tell}: (deadass) Stop it thats racist 🤦‍♀️ [more talking over each other] Niora: (passionate) Yeah she's our friend-- Me: I'm actually a he... Niora: Oh he-- [unintelligible] *Niora turns to me.* Niora: Don't mind him. Me: It's fine 🙏 Niora: I've been called {n word} at school. Me: Oh..............well people are just crazy....................................................................😭 Dominic: This motherfucking....[unintelligible, but it wasn't about anyone there] *Some small kid zooms down the sidewalk behind us on his mini race car or wtv* Serenity (yelling): Bro thinks he's cool 😭 🙏 Niora (yelling): Bro's tryna show off! 😭 💀 [Kid says nothing, did he even hear or understand? 😭] *Dominic sits on the finally-empty swing spot and basically stares hunched over at his phone for 10 minutes straight while everyone else talks.* Serenity: (Holds up phone) Dominic {unknown name}'s calling. *Dominic snaps outta it and looks up obv this is someone he wanna be on good terms with bc he was more tame for the rest of the call* {*NOT DONE YET. ILL CONTINUE ONCE I HAVE MORE MOTIVATION 🤠*}
6/2/25

5/25/25
I luh ranting I hate CAVA so much it can go jump in the goddamn lake. Im glad we don't have to put up with their bullshit soon bc I'm going to irl private school 😜 their curriculum was dull, the live sessions were a snoozefest, the teacher never let us have freedom, all the "fun" activities are teacher monitored, teacher supervised, teacher initiated. The "virtual field trips" are so pathetic like we used to just play a YT vid about Yellowstone for the Yellowstone virtual field trip 💀 The staff try to make it like irl school but trust me it's SOOO different and this is the worst school I have ever been to. I feel most of the teachers are just old and tired and they're making me feel tired to the point where I don't wanna be around them. I have mixed feelings about my clss some people I like, some people I dislike. But what really dislike about some people is that whenever they get into class, every day every week every godamn day for the entire school year, they will complain about being tired and hungry and something like that. When ppl try to comfort them they're like "Oh well my heating's broken, I'm so cold, fix that for me." Like bro nobody actually cares we're just trying to be considerate. AND IF YOU'RE TIRED ALL THE TIME, DON'T STAY UP UNTIL 4AM ON YOUR PHONE!!!!! Js random thoughts "Hello, my name is Naraya Pipkins, and I am a kind, generous, thoughtful, compassionate, and honest person. I love making others laugh, and I have an infectious positive attitude that inspires people. I have a great personality." K bro no offense but we get it you're a good person 💀 Bullying people is just so fun frfr I want a makeover NOW
4/26/25
My honest review on k12 bc I have nothing else to do and Cava kinda sucks ass: I can name ~2 good things about this school: My friends and Mrs. Sanchez. Everything else was so mid. For instance, take the courses. First of all the workload was fucking huge. I see many people complaining on reddit about this as well. The avreage day we get 5-6 live sessions all around 45 minutes long, and 11 assignments with quizzes included. A lot of ppl point out that the sheer amount of assignments dwarfs their old school. Ig that's good in a way cause more work = better performance, but that's not always the case. The curriculm is dull and so fucking boring. It's diengaging and just a bunch of reading. If you actually want to be able to get thru the day, you have to a) skip every single page or b) skim over everything and head straight for the quiz. Math is the only subject in which i do not do this. Even my classmate said she usually doesn't read the lessons and after the live sessions flies to whatever's required. I don't fucking know how the scatterbrained people at this school program their courses. Ex. The weighted grades. So you're telling me that getting 17/20 on a quiz adds ~0.05% to your grade, but getting a 7/10 on another decreases it by 5%. Wow. There is either a lot of pressure on us students to study hard, or none at all. Despite sound very different the two of them are almost equally bad. Grades are also based a lot off of memorization and almost entirely on quizzes and assesments. If i was too lazy to complete lessons, I can just use ChatGPT. However I am not that kind of person and sometimes I regret it. Assesments also entirely dependent on memory and copying the examples. The school does not teach us why, only how. They except us to get 8 formulas down at a time and the next day, they should "be as instant as your multiplication tables." THAT IS AN ACTUAL QUOTE FROM THE OLMS. CAVA sugarcoats their WIN sessions so much and the actual sessions themselves are a BIG FAT STEAMING PILE OF SHIT. Even though I barely been there before I can testify that they're so fucking useless, so fucking shitty it pains me to even think of them. And the school is like "ooooohhhhh jjjust for students that needs a liiiitttllleee extra bit of help!" Like bitch what the actual hell. On the website, they try to convince parents of their "personalized learning plans" But in reality the teachers (most of them anyway) barely care about the individual student and just copy and paste from the lessons. I'm not kidding. I swear to god. I look at live sessions, it looks like normal practice. Then I look at the practice in the assignment, and BAM they're identical. The teacher has so many students to take care of and so little time to think of them as actual people. Also no offense (but if you're reading this you're intruding on my privacy anyway so gtfo) Some of these teachers are kinda old...My dad said he thought younger teachers should teach younger grades and I completely agree with him. Like old teachers should be college professors or smt. My current teacher is 54 or 55 y/o.
4/17/25
I want to get a glowup, but I don't know how. Izzy actually looks like she's 15 now but she's 13 😭 Izzy as we recall sent me some pics of her glowup. She "no longer looks like a female Joel," In her own words (or as how I remember them.) My mom says my budget for a glowup is roughly $100 so I either need to a) keep it simple or b) buy from fast fashion. I'm pretty sure that's how Izzy did it actually. Shein seems like a good option but we'll have to see.
4/17/25 (the call happened earlier)
Today i wentt on a call with izzy. I would've ended it there, except for the fact I haven't called her in ~2-3 years. Now this is smt like the call went: IZZY: Heyy hows it going ME: Good, I guess, how about you? I: Fine Me: Nice...So, what's been happening? I: Nothing much really Me: Nice *pause* Me: Did you make any irl friends? I: Ohhh yeah I made a LOT of friends and I look so much better now I no longer look like a fugly bitch Me: I still suffer from resting bitch face lol I: No you're pretty! [unintelligible, we're talking over each other] I: I'll send some pics to you later Me: Oh and by the way Kira's here, she goes by a new name *holds speaker up to my computer* Ash: Well hello I: Oh hey Kira Me: It's Ash now I: Wait are you a therian Ash: What I: Move stupid whore! [she wasn't talking to us] Okay are you a therian Ash: No, I-- [unintelligible, we're talking over each other] I: .......you're a furry? Ash: What NO *laughing* Me: Didn't you have an otherkin phase though? Ash: Yes-- Me: Oh and also Jaycee is a boy now and goes by a new name, Star I: Jaycee? Omg I hated her she was such a fucking bitch. She would always talk behind me and Maiya's back.† Me: Oh, um.... Ash: [unintelligible] I: You're friends with Jaycee now? Me: Yea, sorta. Yea, she's our friend...she's calmed down a lot since. Ash: Yea. *unintelligible, we're talking over each other* I: Okay don't tell her I said that. Me: K...how bout we just stop talking about Jaycee, you leave her alone, we leave her alone. I: Yeah. *pause* I: So how's Jace? Me: He left our chat Ash: He's in my class, weird as ever. I: He sounds like a man now and he's in a new group chat with me, Maiya, and NiyLai Ash: NiyLai is pretty cool I: Ikr she's so sweet! Me: What does Jace sound like? I: So we were on a call with like the entire gc, Jace had his camrea off, and we were working out a thing. NiyLai had her family in the background, and then all of a sudden I hear this deep voice and I was like "damn NiyLai you bringing some adults here?" And turns out it wasn't them it was Jace. Me: Oh...wow.

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